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I wonder if anyone would notice if I stopped eating? I was watching skins and the other day, the ep in session four where the anorexic chick explains to that guy how she gets away with not eating and even with people watching her and I am now thinking if people would notice if I were to do that because I feel like that is the one thing that is holding me back. I am really hoping that next week when uni starts I can just do a million things all the time which will lead to extra calories being lost and just not eat, or I was also thinking of starting to take laxatives but I still slighting confused of how that actually works, maybe I'll go look that all up now. Lostintransmission.xx

It's my birthday. . .

Today I had a set goal of weighing 80 kilos, well, that hasn't happened, I'm still my whale of a self who seriously needs to lose this fat. On another note, my bf has found a girl to do a 3-sum with, I'm rather excited. . . I've always wanted to experience and just see what it's like, you know, doing it with a girl and with more then one person, I know the girl through friends but we're not that close and she's a nice kind of person but what I like the most about this girl is that she weighes more then me so I'm not going to feel like complete shit the whole night. I guess that is kind of all for the night, I will keep you all posted on both things soon enough, chao. Lostintransmission.xx

13.2.12

Today I started with my VLCD shake which tasted terrible because I couldn't find my shaker and had to stir it and there was still lumps all in it! Yukk!

From that I thought I was going really good until about 1pm where my body was like fuck you go eat so I had a wholemeal sandwich with avocado, tasty cheese, turkey breast and pickles. Filled me up and then at about 5pm I had a space stick because my mum got them for my sisters lunches and I was like omg I haven't had one of these in forever I want one! So wasn't worth it tasted like complete crap. :/

Tomorrow hopefully I can do better I've got thing planned all day so I'll be on my feet and hopefully can ignore my cravings and achieve my goal of 80kgs by the end of Feb so I can start on the long haul of 70kgs.

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Straving yourself is not that good of an idea

Yeah I know you all could of told me that, go suck a fat one alright? I have a new plan, I get a new one every couple of days but my birthday is on wednesday and I'm going out friday night so it is kind of important! I do want to look good so. . . I'm going to eat breakfast to get me through the day because I do way too much not to eat. It's not going to be a big breakfast or nothing so don't get your hopes up but I'm thinking like one of those VLDC Diet shake things (I have a whole lot atm) or like a piece of fruit just to get me up and running and then see how I go and if I'm like dying have either a cucumber or a carrot in the afternoon after the gym. I will let you all know how that goes for me later on. Lostintransmission.xx

Chocolate

I feel like chocolate or ice cream, but that's just complete shit and not going to help the cause. Fuck life. Lostintransmission.xx

Straving myself

Alright yes I know it's the wrong thing to do and it can be really bad for me but not as bad as dying from a heart attack at twenty, I'm not going to fully starve myself, or maybe I will on and off but it's going to be a close to nothing diet, no that's not right because it's not going to be a diet it's going to become a life style because I am so fucking over being fat, I tried what everyone had told me to do and all it did was make me lose 5kgs but I'm still fat and this isn't be over exaggerating or anything this me being serious. I'm 85Kgs with a 86 waist like beached whale much? I need a change and this is going to be it, no more listening to what people think is good for you I'm going to lose this weight and be fucking beautiful because it is what I deserve. Lostintransmission.xx

Going Vegan

So I’ve been thinking and well I eat a lot of crap food and I thought why don’t I try something to stop doing that so I’m going to try a vegan diet for a month and see how it goes, I don’t know how I’m going to cope without having a ham and cheese croissant when I go out with the girls but oh well, it’s worth a try and there is really no harm it slipping up and now and then. Lostintransmission.xx

uni

So tonight I got bored and decided I should check out my course load for uni and my time table and text books and well basically everything and truthfully right now I feel so over whelmed I don't want to go anymore. Just thought I would share that after 13 years of schooling I finally get to the start of the rest of my life and I just want to go back to kiddy. Lostintransmission.xx

84.4

I was extremely amazed this morning when I hoped on the scales. I hoped on to see how much more I needed to lose this week to get to my goal of 85 for this Friday coming and to my surprise I was 84.4! I was so happy by this I thought I would share it with you.

Since starting this whole at the beginning of October I have lost 7kgs which I am really happy about because that means I'm 1/3 of the way to my target weight and this latest accomplishment has made me hopeful that I can get another 1/3 done by my birthday next month bring me to 77kgs.

Wish me luck :) and hopefully you are all sticking to your new years resolutions.

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Almost to the first goal post.

I was weighed and measured on Friday an would like to say I've lost 1cm off both my hips and waist and lost 1kg in two weeks which I am sort of happy with. Next week I plan to put the exercise up a bit and aim for 1kg a week for a few months.

How are you going with your new year resolution?

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