life

hello hello all, just relised I havn't really introduced myself just really been having a bit of a bitch, well, I'm heather from sydney, I live in the inner west like 20 minutes from the city and I swear its like the most awesome thing ever,ignoring the fact that as soon as I can I want to move away from here, but i guess thtas a completely different story, I aim to do something with radio or tv production, I'm in year 11 and I swear its killing my life, I thought I was choicing alright subjects and like now its like OMFG I hate half of them, its like you know when you get this idea in your head about what somethings going to be like? well thats exactly what happended to me. I was all yeah this'll be cool, history will be like last year, math will be a bludge, entertainment will be mad, bleh bleh bleh, couldn't be more wrong.

Like I like entertainment, its fun I've met new people and stuff and its teaching me stuff I will probably want to know, but on the other hand its got me thinking that maybe I should have kept up with the whole doing a year of radio production basics and a year of tv basics, but everyone talked me out of it and like I'm slowly starting to regret it, but I guess theres not much I can really do.

And with history, last year I though it was a pain but I liked it, it was interesting, something different, something I could somehow relate to, but like now its all different, its confusing the fuck outta me. and its like the same with Math, last year it pissed me off, but like I'm awesome with it, and now its like arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I want to seriously pull me hair out.

But I guess its all about living with things I guess. But yeah, back to about me, I'm nothing overly interesting really, just an over the top average school girl who wants to get away. I seriously think that most of the people I know are back stabbing two faced whores, but I live with them, more like atempt my hardest to put up with them. Adn half the time I feel like turing around to them and telling them to get the fuck overthemselves and too grow the fuck up, but then again, theres not much I can do about all that really.

I am slowly becomming more and more lazy with not really bothering about most things, and not really bothering with worrying about what the rest of society thinks of me, it strains too much on my mental health. I have recently fallen in love with a man who not many people agreed with me doing so, we fight on occassions, but we seem to make it though most of the bullshit thta peopel chuck at us, and he can seriously be the biggest pain in the arse from time to time, but its like I know his only doing to look after me and protect me in his own special twisted way, and thats kinda why I love him.

I have the normal family from what most people would say, you know, mum, dad, two sisters and a brother, the people you know you can depend on if you need something, as much as tye piss me off I love them, because I know that no matter which family I'm with, the people in it are generally going to find a way to piss you off.

I think thats kinda all for now, so I'm off.

lostintransmission. x