wemakeupjustsowecanbrakeup

rawr, okay so like sometimes it does feel like things only happen so that it can then fall apart, if you think about it, it is somewhat true. Two weeks ago it all fell apart and a day later it was perfect again and it happened again on friday, so I went to the party and he didn't come and ignored me for like the entire day until about 5 minutes before I was going to leave, he tried to start a fight but it didn't work, and just put my phone away and ignored it, but when i went and checked it later on he was going on saying that I was drinking and shit and trying to make it seem like I was cheating on him which pissed me off emencly and we ended up fighting over it and by the end of it all I told him it was over, and he just took it and didn't say anything about it.

And then comes a long saturday morning and he's ringing me up at 8 in the morning wanting to talk, so I go after everything I did it was the least I could do, and we sat not talking for almost and hour and then he turns around is telling me that it could never work again and all random stuff and I was like fine, like seriously what else was I going to, admit defeat right in front of him? I dont think so. So on he went and then we turns around and his like I'm hungry and he invites me over to eat, and its WTF? after saying it could never work again his doing this? He was seriously confusing thw fuck out of me, but I went, I wasn't about to let it fall apart compelety, but I told myself I wouldn't fight which I didn't do, but though out the day wierd things happen, he was saying stuff like I wasn't his girlfriend one minute but the next saying that he wanted me as his wife the next, so I went with it.

And then by the end of day it all seemed somewhat back on track, and we were happy again, but in the past two days from that things have changed, not from the happiness, or things becomming bad, but it all seems somewhat more romantic. Something I don't think either of us have seen in a while, and it had been nice. But it has got me thinking about how much longer its going to last, like what happens if I want to go out again and he acts the way he did again? or what if we have some fight that kills us both. It really does have me thinking, but then again all I can do is hope for the best.