I somewhat love her hair!

So I was stalking on lookbook.nu and I came across this lovely lady and I was like ZOMG her hair is awesome and thought I should share it with all of you. Go do some stalking :p

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Santa notices me, why don't you?

Alright, so thisn't going to be some rant about a guy so relax your sacks.

I feel like I'm somewhat wasting my time on this whole thing for two reasons:

1. I have two followers. . . Both of which are good friends of mine and only followed me because I begged them to which is kind of sad.

2. I don't feel like I have a purpose. . . You know I could be one of those people that go on and on about how gawd damn boring their life is but that just seems like a bigger waste of time. Erk. I just don't know. . .

Some advice on how to get more followers or what I should talk about would be nice.

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Reasons to get up in the morning.

Alright, I was blog stalking and came across this:

Sometimes it can be very difficult to get up, out of a cozy bed and wake from a comfortable sleep where anything is possible, and into the mundane every day lifestyle that so many people complain about. Trust me, I know...

But here are some reasons that make me get out of bed happily!

You can't find out the weather without getting out of bed.

You might miss out on something huge and exciting.

You can't make life better from the comfort of your bed.

You ruin all chance of stumbling across the answers to your problems.

You can't receive any compliments.

You'll forget any special ideas before it comes to sharing them.

And most of all, a day counts when it comes to our short lifespan.

Thought some of you may enjoy it.

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Caught in the middle

So I've got this friend she's basically my best friend we've been like apple pie and cream since we were little but she's having some problems. She's been going out with this guy for a couple of months now by they were really good friends for about three years before that and what's happened is she's realized that they have no possible future so she's tried to break things off with him and I've somehow become caught in the middle because over the years I've kind of become his friend as well and right now I don't know what to do. I know I should be supportive of her discussions because it's her life but I know she's happy with him but she doesn't want to spend time with someone if it's going no where (who wants that?) and well he's asking me what to do and she's confused and it's like what do I do? This isn't my mess I just want the both of them to be happy.

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So you are in a failed relationship

Okay there is thus guy who I've got on Facebook and he just goes from one fucked up relationship to the next and the thing is most of the time they don't last more then two months but at the end of them he always spends a week bitching on Facebook about it and going on how he's going to drink himself to death and it's like well why don't you just go out with girls who aren't going to turn out to be complete whores? Seriously, idiots these days they do my head in.

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University?

I'm going to start this off with the title of a fb group I saw 'In every circle of friends there is one person who can answer every question you throw at them.' As I read this I thought to myself that's kind of me, I'm the type of person where if you ask me something I will have some sort of answer for it all the time even if it isn't right. Except this one question 'Which university should I go to?'

This question is kill me. Deep down I want to go to Notre Dame, it just seems so amazing. It might be a small university but everything they seem to offer out does the rest, I guess that's why I wanted early entry so I knew I'd have a place there.

You see as much as I want to go to Notre Dame I've always wanted to wind up at USYD (university of Sydney.) I guess this is because everyone deep down inside themselves wants to go there, like who wouldn't, it's the most well known university's in Australia and offers so much, but it's not where my heart really lies.

My final real place of interest would be ACU (Australian Catholic University) this place because it has the most renown teaching courses in NSW (I want to do teaching.) The problem is that the course is the only thing drawing me to the university, and I don't want to be at a university where I dislike everything else besides the course.

I know that it shouldn't matter where I end up because at the end of the day I know where I want to end up and I know what I have to do to achieve it. I guess I just want the most out of the next four years of my life because as everyone says they're the best years of your life.

I guess I just have to wait another three weeks for my marks.

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Being a woman

As I stand here in the kitchen doing the woman thing and cooking ( don't give me any feminism stuff) I think to myself where is the line between stirring the pot and actually bullying someone?

I was out today and a male friend of mine was going on about so hot some girls (who looked 12) arse was. Like don't get me wrong I value the female arse in many forms and accept a comment from a stranger and will listen to a friend like this one go on about an arse but it brings me to a thought of where is the line? Is it age? How fat the commenter is taking it? Or is it fine to just keep going because they are simply interested on the arse?

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A funny thing really.

I know I just posted a thing but I was looking at my page stats and I found it somewhat interesting that most of my audience (not that it's a big one) is from the complete opposite of the world, seriously. I'm on little old (not really) Australia and all my views are from Europe and Russia and Africa and a few other places and I was thinking how do I even get an audience on those places I don't know anyone outside of Australia that even knows I have this attempt of a blog, well at least I thought it was funny. Lostintransmission.xx

Why is ginger called ginger if it's not really ginger?

That one has got you thinking, hasn't it?

Okay so my dilemma of the day. I seem to be having a few of these recently. The whole boyfriend and mother thing, I've gotten the reasoning behind the whole father boyfriend junk but the mother boyfriend thing is a whole new playing field.

I've learnt that different people want different things to happen in your life because it's either going to impact on their lives or it's going to set you up for something positive in the future but what happens when what they want isn't what you want? I've just reached that stage.

I'm the kind of person that will spend as much effort possible on trying to keep other people even if it means I might end up in a place (both mentally and/or psychically) that I might not want to be in. The thing lately is that trying to keep l these people happy has become a nightmare especially between my boyfriend and my mother. I know they both want the best for me but the thing is I don't know if what they want is what I want anymore.

I'm not going to give which one wants what but one wants me to just go out their and experience everything I possibly could and the other just wants me to take it slowly and trend carefully. My problem isn't that I have to choose between the both of them because that's not even possible it's my mother and the guy ice spent three years with they are both equally important to me. It's that they feel as if they get to make my decisions for me and if I go against one I get shit feed to me about it.

I just want to be left to feel happy with my decisions and not as if I have to please everyone else. I mean it is my life but sometimes it feels like no one e even listens to me.

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escaping my escape.

It's been a little under two months since I finish school and a week since I completed my last exam, yet I don't feel free. I remember when I was complaining that I didn't want to be at school anymore, people would say it'll all be over soon and you'll wish it didn't end, yet I don't feel that. I feel as if I need to escape something greater then just the reality that has spent six years growing on me now that I've finished I feel some what lost. I've became apart of this life style that I spent day in day out living completely without a complaint and now I have to find another one to be apart of and it's somewhat scray. I mean I felt like finishing high school would be an escape but it wasn't it just me into a deeper need to escape. I've become trapped in a life that I don't want to be living, maybe soon enough thigns will change but for now Im lost and despirae to escape into a greater realtiy in which I acutally see a purpose. lostintransmissionxx