escaping my escape.

It's been a little under two months since I finish school and a week since I completed my last exam, yet I don't feel free. I remember when I was complaining that I didn't want to be at school anymore, people would say it'll all be over soon and you'll wish it didn't end, yet I don't feel that. I feel as if I need to escape something greater then just the reality that has spent six years growing on me now that I've finished I feel some what lost. I've became apart of this life style that I spent day in day out living completely without a complaint and now I have to find another one to be apart of and it's somewhat scray. I mean I felt like finishing high school would be an escape but it wasn't it just me into a deeper need to escape. I've become trapped in a life that I don't want to be living, maybe soon enough thigns will change but for now Im lost and despirae to escape into a greater realtiy in which I acutally see a purpose. lostintransmissionxx