Why is ginger called ginger if it's not really ginger?

That one has got you thinking, hasn't it?

Okay so my dilemma of the day. I seem to be having a few of these recently. The whole boyfriend and mother thing, I've gotten the reasoning behind the whole father boyfriend junk but the mother boyfriend thing is a whole new playing field.

I've learnt that different people want different things to happen in your life because it's either going to impact on their lives or it's going to set you up for something positive in the future but what happens when what they want isn't what you want? I've just reached that stage.

I'm the kind of person that will spend as much effort possible on trying to keep other people even if it means I might end up in a place (both mentally and/or psychically) that I might not want to be in. The thing lately is that trying to keep l these people happy has become a nightmare especially between my boyfriend and my mother. I know they both want the best for me but the thing is I don't know if what they want is what I want anymore.

I'm not going to give which one wants what but one wants me to just go out their and experience everything I possibly could and the other just wants me to take it slowly and trend carefully. My problem isn't that I have to choose between the both of them because that's not even possible it's my mother and the guy ice spent three years with they are both equally important to me. It's that they feel as if they get to make my decisions for me and if I go against one I get shit feed to me about it.

I just want to be left to feel happy with my decisions and not as if I have to please everyone else. I mean it is my life but sometimes it feels like no one e even listens to me.

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